monkey. there is so many things to do i am drowning in the ever growing amount of things to do. child-like faith? sometimes i really wished i have it. the more things start to pile on the more i hold on. doing all these things i lose sight of God It feels like i am in a tunnel and the light at the end is diming. even though i know it is there, at times i cant see it. I ask myself, when will this all end. all these things that happened this year seem so pointless and random. i dont know where i am headed to. just turning round in circles on the same spot and now i am giddy. the more i try to go the worse it becomes.
This thing about trusting i just cant come to grips with. March holidays come sooner. maybe then i will not feel so tired and finally rest.